FFS

Forget what I posted earlier about being excited and nervous about tomorrows scan. I am now just sh*tting myself!

I’ve just been to the toilet only to have a massive bleed. WTF is going on in there?! I’ve not felt baby moving all day either come to think of it which is now making me panic a little. FFS I’m tired of all this stressing out about not only financial sh*te but also this pregnancy. This isn't how I imagined it to be!

The Scan Department and Day Clinic are now shut and if anything is happening to this baby then I’d much rather it happened here at home then be kept in overnight. I can’t even call my midwife as she is on holiday this week.

Fingers crossed that tomorrow brings only good news but I’m now completely resigned to the fact that it won’t.