I Guess This Is It

It seems to be happening.

Having had cramps and dark spotting all day, I have just gone to the toilet and there is now pure red blood.

I’m not sure what to do.

It’s my second day at my new job so I can’t go home and if I did leave now what could be done.

I’ve only another two hours to wait until home time so I guess I can wait until then and go straight to the hospital. Will they be able to see me, will they even take me seriously?

I can't get hold of my OH either. He’s not answering the home phone and the silly sod has lost his mobile.

Just as long as the blood doesn’t get stronger I can cope with these cramps and the wait.

I guess this little one wasn’t meant to be.

Will This Worry Ever Stop?

After a year of temping, I started a new permanent job yesterday and I already hate it.

I’m a PA to a Financial Advisor, based on the 3rd floor of an old building and the nearest toilets are a floor down via some very small and steep stairs. I wish I was back at my old, comfy, friendly Council office. I miss my familiar, friendly work colleagues.

I have also started spotting again, although this time it’s darker and more frequent.

I can’t say anything to my new boss as yet because he doesn’t even know that I’m pregnant but I feel like I should be laying down in bed until it goes away and this pregnancy starts to feel 'normal' and less stressful.

I have a second scan on Monday which will hopefully show that things are ok. I can only hope that this baby can hold on for that long.

It’s only week six but already it feels like a lifetime.