Hello Aunt Flo

Well she finally knocked on my door today.

She's only light at the moment but I’ve got the tell tale cramps around the thighs and pelvis as pre Bobby so I know this is her and not the same mad cramping I had a couple of weeks back.

Funny enough, she has arrived four weeks to the day that I gave birth. Fate or a bad reminder; I’m not sure. Pre Bobby I was 28 days on the dot and I hope this will continue to be so.

This may sound strange but I’m going to do a pregnancy test when the AF finishes, just making sure I get a negative and we can then go from there. We are not going to try; as I’ve said previously, it will be a case of 'if it happens, it happens'. That way there will be no pressure and no expectations as there was the last time.

My Brother and I were in talks last night about doing a run to raise some money for SANDS. We haven’t confirmed any dates or where we will run yet but not only will it be a good goal to aim for, it will also, hopefully, get me back into shape.

I am doing a Car Boot in two weeks time with my Mum and my Aunt and I have decided to sell quite a few of the baby grows and the other items that I had for Bobby but that were not special. I’ve kept the special items of clothing which we brought him and which were brought by friends especially for him; they are in his memory box, but I have over 80 vests/sleep suites and they are doing nothing and will probably do nothing for quite a while.

Infact they are still hanging up in the wardrobe as I keep putting off taking them down but I think I am finally ready to do it. Thinking about doing it is bringing a tear to my eye, but they can’t be left hanging up forever as they are a reminder and they are in the wardrobe which my OH uses so it’s not fair on him to see them there every day either. I guess doing the car boot is an excuse because then I do have to do it.

And breathe. PMA. PMA.